I have had a rough 2025 to say the least, but I’m not complaining. I’ve experienced setback after setback after setback. I will keep pushing forward; it’s all I really know how to do. I recently experienced something that sort of turned me off from writing and from fighting the battles I’ve been battling to get some projects made. I should have never let it infect me, but I am only human. I fell out of love briefly with cinema; I wanted nothing to do with it because of what I experienced. You always hear that actors can be divas, and boy can they. I don’t do negative; I don’t want to be around it. While I will never really go into what happened, it has helped me find my love for the craft again, and I have been writing and watching movies and shows like I’ve never done before.
I recently finished binge-watching Ted Lasso. I am a sucker for a well-written show or movie, especially if they get me to fall in love with the characters and the people. Over at Ted Lasso, they did just that. We see this man who just wants to see the world a certain way and to help people see themselves for who they are rather than what they believe people see them as. He uplifts and helps everyone he comes across and encourages them to be better people. I envy how easily he just lets things go. Even when it clearly impacted his overall mental health. This show is brilliantly written and cast. Even if I am in the minority with this opinion, it is a fantastic show, and I can’t wait for the next season.
My point to this is I got so caught up in the “business” side of things that I forgot even if briefly why I got into this to begin with. Movies and music have been part of my life practically since birth. I would spend many weekends with my mom just watching as many movies as we could over the weekend before going back to work or school, and during the summer I would stay up watching movies until I passed out from exhaustion. I consumed movies. I haven’t been doing that. I haven’t been watching the things that have been part of my life for as long as I can remember because I got too busy trying to make my own dreams and stories happen.
I don’t say all that to say I’m giving up; in fact, it’s the exact opposite. I’m working harder every day to get my visions out there. I have to because I made my family a promise several years ago. I’m on borrowed time, and much like Ted Lasso, I don’t quit anything. Never have, and I won’t start now. While I did and have been focusing on building the right team around me, I have also begun to travel to scout locations and really start digging into getting things moving in the right direction. I am excited again and more than that I am grateful that the universe still allows me to live no matter what is thrown at me. I’m grateful because I’m pushing to accomplish all I’ve ever dreamt of and it always gets tougher right before you reach your goal. So bring it on!
I saw this the other day, and while Michael Jordan is one of my biggest influences, this meme describes my mindset and my dedication perfectly right now.
Yes I will.